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puisi inggris-Howl (Parts I and II)

 Puisi inggris

Howl (Parts I and II)

by Allen Ginsberg

    www.puisidankamut.blogspot.comFor Carl Solomon
      I saw the best minds of my generation destroyed by madness, starving
      hysterical naked,
      dragging themselves through the negro streets at dawn looking for an angry
      fix,
      angelheaded hipsters burning for the ancient heavenly connection to the
      starry dynamo in the machinery of night,
      who poverty and tatters and hollow-eyed and high sat up smoking in the
      supernatural darkness of cold-water flats floating across the tops of
      cities contemplating jazz,
      who bared their brains to Heaven under the El and saw Mohammedan angels
      staggering on tenement roofs illuminated,
      who passed through universities with radiant cool eyes hallucinating Arkan-
      sas and Blake-light tragedy among the scholars of war,
      who were expelled from the academies for crazy & publishing obscene odes
      on the windows of the skull,
      who cowered in unshaven rooms in underwear, burning their money in
      wastebaskets and listening to the Terror through the wall,
      who got busted in their pubic beards returning through Laredo with a belt
      of marijuana for New York,
      who ate fire in paint hotels or drank turpentine in Paradise Alley, death, or
      purgatoried their torsos night after night
      with dreams, with drugs, with waking nightmares, alcohol and cock and
      endless balls,
      incomparable blind streets of shuddering cloud and lightning in the mind
      leaping toward poles of Canada & Paterson, illuminating all the mo-
      tionless world of Time between,
      Peyote solidities of halls, backyard green tree cemetery dawns, wine drunk-
      enness over the rooftops, storefront boroughs of teahead joyride neon
      blinking traffic light, sun and moon and tree vibrations in the roaring
      winter dusks of Brooklyn, ashcan rantings and kind king light of
      mind,
      who chained themselves to subways for the endless ride from Battery to holy
      Bronx on benzedrine until the noise of wheels and children brought
      them down shuddering mouth-wracked and battered bleak of brain
      all drained of brilliance in the drear light of Zoo,
      who sank all night in submarine light of Bickford's floated out and sat
      through the stale beer afternoon in desolate Fugazzi's, listening to the
      crack of doom on the hydrogen jukebox,
      who talked continuously seventy hours from park to pad to bar to Bellevue
      to museum to the Brooklyn Bridge,
      a lost battalion of platonic conversationalists jumping down the stoops off fire
      escapes off windowsills of Empire State out of the moon,
      yacketayakking screaming vomiting whispering facts and memories and
      anecdotes and eyeball kicks and shocks of hospitals and jails and wars,
      whole intellects disgorged in total recall for seven days and nights with
      brilliant eyes, meat for the Synagogue cast on the pavement,
      who vanished into nowhere Zen New Jersey leaving a trail of ambiguous
      picture postcards of Atlantic City Hall,
      suffering Eastern sweats and Tangerian bone-grindings and migraines of
      China under junk-withdrawal in Newark's bleak furnished room,
      who wandered around and around at midnight in the railroad yard wonder-
      ing where to go, and went, leaving no broken hearts,
      who lit cigarettes in boxcars boxcars boxcars racketing through snow toward
      lonesome farms in grandfather night,
      who studied Plotinus Poe St. John of the Cross telepathy and bop kabbalah
      because the cosmos instinctively vibrated at their feet in Kansas,
      who loned it through the streets of Idaho seeking visionary indian angels
      who were visionary indian angels,
      who thought they were only mad when Baltimore gleamed in supernatural
      ecstasy,
      who jumped in limousines with the Chinaman of Oklahoma on the impulse
      of winter midnight streetlight smalltown rain,
      who lounged hungry and lonesome through Houston seeking jazz or sex or
      soup, and followed the brilliant Spaniard to converse about America
      and Eternity, a hopeless task, and so took ship to Africa,
      who disappeared into the volcanoes of Mexico leaving behind nothing but
      the shadow of dungarees and the lava and ash of poetry scattered in
      fireplace Chicago,
      who reappeared on the West Coast investigating the FBI in beards and shorts
      with big pacifist eyes sexy in their dark skin passing out incompre-
      hensible leaflets,
      who burned cigarette holes in their arms protesting the narcotic tobacco haze
      of Capitalism,
      who distributed Supercommunist pamphlets in Union Square weeping and
      undressing while the sirens of Los Alamos wailed them down, and
      wailed down Wall, and the Staten Island ferry also wailed,
      who broke down crying in white gymnasiums naked and trembling before
      the machinery of other skeletons,
      who bit detectives in the neck and shrieked with delight in policecars for
      committing no crime but their own wild cooking pederasty and
      intoxication,
      who howled on their knees in the subway and were dragged off the roof
      waving genitals and manuscripts,
      who let themselves be fucked in the ass by saintly motorcyclists, and
      screamed with joy,
      who blew and were blown by those human seraphim, the sailors, caresses of
      Atlantic and Caribbean love,
      who balled in the morning in the evenings in rosegardens and the grass of
      public parks and cemeteries scattering their semen freely to whom-
      ever come who may,
      who hiccuped endlessly trying to giggle but wound up with a sob behind
      a partition in a Turkish Bath when the blond & naked angel came to
      pierce them with a sword,
      who lost their loveboys to the three old shrews of fate the one eyed shrew
      of the heterosexual dollar the one eyed shrew that winks out of the
      womb and the one eyed shrew that does nothing but sit on her ass
      and snip the intellectual golden threads of the craftsman's loom.
      who copulated ecstatic and insatiate with a bottle of beer a sweetheart a
      package of cigarettes a candle and fell off the bed, and continued
      along the floor and down the hall and ended fainting on the wall with
      a vision of ultimate cunt and come eluding the last gyzym of con-
      sciousness,
      who sweetened the snatches of a million girls trembling in the sunset, and
      were red eyed in the morning but prepared to sweeten the snatch of
      the sunrise, flashing buttocks under barns and naked in the lake,
      who went out whoring through Colorado in myriad stolen night-cars, N.C.,
      secret hero of these poems, cocksman and Adonis of Denver--joy to
      the memory of his innumerable lays of girls in empty lots & diner
      backyards, moviehouses' rickety rows, on mountaintops in caves or
      with gaunt waitresses in familiar roadside lonely petticoat upliftings
      & especially secret gas-station solipsisms of johns, & hometown alleys
      too,
      who faded out in vast sordid movies, were shifted in dreams, woke on a
      sudden Manhattan, and picked themselves up out of basements hung-
      over with heartless Tokay and horrors of Third Avenue iron dreams
      & stumbled to unemployment offices,
      who walked all night with their shoes full of blood on the snowbank docks
      waiting for a door in the East River to open to a room full of steam-
      heat and opium,
      who created great suicidal dramas on the apartment cliff-banks of the Hud-
      son under the wartime blue floodlight of the moon & their heads shall
      be crowned with laurel in oblivion,
      who ate the lamb stew of the imagination or digested the crab at the muddy
      bottom of the rivers of Bowery,
      who wept at the romance of the streets with their pushcarts full of onions
      and bad music,
      who sat in boxes breathing in the darkness under the bridge, and rose up to
      build harpsichords in their lofts,
      who coughed on the sixth floor of Harlem crowned with flame under the
      tubercular sky surrounded by orange crates of theology,
      who scribbled all night rocking and rolling over lofty incantations which in
      the yellow morning were stanzas of gibberish,
      who cooked rotten animals lung heart feet tail borsht & tortillas dreaming
      of the pure vegetable kingdom,
      who plunged themselves under meat trucks looking for an egg,
      who threw their watches off the roof to cast their ballot for Eternity outside
      of Time, & alarm clocks fell on their heads every day for the next
      decade,
      who cut their wrists three times successively unsuccessfully, gave up and
      were forced to open antique stores where they thought they were
      growing old and cried,
      who were burned alive in their innocent flannel suits on Madison Avenue
      amid blasts of leaden verse & the tanked-up clatter of the iron regi-
      ments of fashion & the nitroglycerine shrieks of the fairies of advertis-
      ing & the mustard gas of sinister intelligent editors, or were run down
      by the drunken taxicabs of Absolute Reality,
      who jumped off the Brooklyn Bridge this actually happened and walked
      away unknown and forgotten into the ghostly daze of Chinatown
      soup alleyways & firetrucks, not even one free beer,
      who sang out of their windows in despair, fell out of the subway window,
      jumped in the filthy Passaic, leaped on negroes, cried all over the
      street, danced on broken wineglasses barefoot smashed phonograph
      records of nostalgic European 1930s German jazz finished the whis-
      key and threw up groaning into the bloody toilet, moans in their ears
      and the blast of colossal steamwhistles,
      who barreled down the highways of the past journeying to the each other's
      hotrod-Golgotha jail-solitude watch or Birmingham jazz incarnation,
      who drove crosscountry seventytwo hours to find out if I had a vision or you
      had a vision or he had a vision to find out Eternity,
      who journeyed to Denver, who died in Denver, who came back to Denver
      & waited in vain, who watched over Denver & brooded & loned in
      Denver and finally went away to find out the Time, & now Denver
      is lonesome for her heroes,
      who fell on their knees in hopeless cathedrals praying for each other's salva-
      tion and light and breasts, until the soul illuminated its hair for a
      second,
      who crashed through their minds in jail waiting for impossible criminals
      with golden heads and the charm of reality in their hearts who sang
      sweet blues to Alcatraz,
      who retired to Mexico to cultivate a habit, or Rocky Mount to tender Buddha
      or Tangiers to boys or Southern Pacific to the black locomotive or
      Harvard to Narcissus to Woodlawn to the daisychain or grave,
      who demanded sanity trials accusing the radio of hypnotism & were left with
      their insanity & their hands & a hung jury,
      who threw potato salad at CCNY lecturers on Dadaism and subsequently
      presented themselves on the granite steps of the madhouse with
      shaven heads and harlequin speech of suicide, demanding instanta-
      neous lobotomy,
      and who were given instead the concrete void of insulin Metrazol electricity
      hydrotherapy psychotherapy occupational therapy pingpong & am-
      nesia,
      who in humorless protest overturned only one symbolic pingpong table,
      resting briefly in catatonia,
      returning years later truly bald except for a wig of blood, and tears and
      fingers, to the visible madman doom of the wards of the madtowns
      of the East,
      Pilgrim State's Rockland's and Greystone's foetid halls, bickering with the
      echoes of the soul, rocking and rolling in the midnight solitude-bench
      dolmen-realms of love, dream of life a nightmare, bodies turned to
      stone as heavy as the moon,
      with mother finally ******, and the last fantastic book flung out of the
      tenement window, and the last door closed at 4 a.m. and the last
      telephone slammed at the wall in reply and the last furnished room
      emptied down to the last piece of mental furniture, a yellow paper
      rose twisted on a wire hanger in the closet, and even that imaginary,
      nothing but a hopeful little bit of hallucination--
      ah, Carl, while you are not safe I am not safe, and now you're really in the
      total animal soup of time--
      and who therefore ran through the icy streets obsessed with a sudden flash
      of the alchemy of the use of the ellipse the catalog the meter & the
      vibrating plane,
      who dreamt and made incarnate gaps in Time & Space through images
      juxtaposed, and trapped the archangel of the soul between 2 visual
      images and joined the elemental verbs and set the noun and dash of
      consciousness together jumping with sensation of Pater Omnipotens
      Aeterna Deus
      to recreate the syntax and measure of poor human prose and stand before
      you speechless and intelligent and shaking with shame, rejected yet
      confessing out the soul to conform to the rhythm of thought in his
      naked and endless head,
      the madman bum and angel beat in Time, unknown, yet putting down here
      what might be left to say in time come after death,
      and rose reincarnate in the ghostly clothes of jazz in the goldhorn shadow
      of the band and blew the suffering of America's naked mind for love
      into an eli eli lamma lamma sabacthani saxophone cry that shivered
      the cities down to the last radio
      with the absolute heart of the poem of life butchered out of their own bodies
      good to eat a thousand years.

II

      What sphinx of cement and aluminum bashed open their skulls and ate up
      their brains and imagination?
      Moloch! Solitude! Filth! Ugliness! Ashcans and unobtainable dollars! Chil-
      dren screaming under the stairways! Boys sobbing in armies! Old
      men weeping in the parks!
      Moloch! Moloch! Nightmare of Moloch! Moloch the loveless! Mental Mo-
      loch! Moloch the heavy judger of men!
      Moloch the incomprehensible prison! Moloch the crossbone soulless jail-
      house and Congress of sorrows! Moloch whose buildings are judg-
      ment! Moloch the vast stone of war! Moloch the stunned govern-
      ments!
      Moloch whose mind is pure machinery! Moloch whose blood is running
      money! Moloch whose fingers are ten armies! Moloch whose breast
      is a cannibal dynamo! Moloch whose ear is a smoking tomb!
      Moloch whose eyes are a thousand blind windows! Moloch whose skyscrap-
      ers stand in the long streets like endless Jehovahs! Moloch whose
      factories dream and croak in the fog! Moloch whose smokestacks and
      antennae crown the cities!
      Moloch whose love is endless oil and stone! Moloch whose soul is electricity
      and banks! Moloch whose poverty is the specter of genius! Moloch
      whose fate is a cloud of sexless hydrogen! Moloch whose name is the
      Mind!
      Moloch in whom I sit lonely! Moloch in whom I dream Angels! Crazy in
      Moloch! Cocksucker in Moloch! Lacklove and manless in Moloch!
      Moloch who entered my soul early! Moloch in whom I am a consciousness
      without a body! Moloch who frightened me out of my natural ec-
      stasy! Moloch whom I abandon! Wake up in Moloch! Light stream-
      ing out of the sky!
      Moloch! Moloch! Robot apartments! invisible suburbs! skeleton treasuries!
      blind capitals! demonic industries! spectral nations! invincible mad houses
      granite cocks! monstrous bombs!
      They broke their backs lifting Moloch to Heaven! Pavements, trees, radios,
      tons! lifting the city to Heaven which exists and is everywhere about us!
      Visions! omens! hallucinations! miracles! ecstasies! gone down the American
      river!
      Dreams! adorations! illuminations! religions! the whole boatload of sensitive
      bullshit!
      Breakthroughs! over the river! flips and crucifixions! gone down the flood!
      Highs! Epiphanies! Despairs! Ten years' animal screams and suicides!
      Minds! New loves! Mad generation! down on the rocks of Time!
      Real holy laughter in the river! They saw it all! the wild eyes! the holy yells!
      They bade farewell! They jumped off the roofl to solitude! waving! carrying
      flowers! Down to the river! into the street!
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